Mrs. Soules to be is.....


Where are all my bachelor peeps??! Who watched the grand finale last night?! 

He picked Whitney! Seriously though, if I hear another person complain about her voice, I am gonna smack them! Obviously it doesn't bother Chris so get over it already! 

Did anyone else feel like Whitney was a shoo-in just from how much his family praised her and said such positive things? I felt like it was a no brainer from that point in the show who he was going to pick. 


I thought the who dialogue between Chris and Becca was very classy. They were both so honest and she held exited with such class. 

What did y'all think? 

Both of their dresses on the finale I thought were so ugly! lol I don't know if it was just so freaking cold in Iowa that they dressed them in such warm looking dresses or what? 

pic from here

Waking up is the hardest part

broken heart


I'm not really sure how I am making it through these rough days. I have cried more and more each day and I just wonder how I have any tears left. It has been pretty unbearable coming home to our house from work each day. Yesterday after working out at the gym, my husband and I sat in my car in the gym parking lot debating if we wanted to go home because we just dreaded opening the front door and entering into a home of complete silence. No bark, no little jingle bell on her harness to great us. My heart is just so heavy. Sharing John Mayer's song felt very fitting. Aspen's normal vet called me at work today, and I have to admit as difficult as a conversation as it was, I am really feeling a little better hearing her tell me that she would of done the same thing. And from what she saw on the X rays or doctor's notes, that the surgery would of been to risky and we probably would of lost Aspen during the operation. She feels we did the most humane thing, which still leaves me without her and hurts so much, but I am trying so hard to comes to terms that she is in a better place. It just isn't easy.

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Heart forever broken

It is with deep saddness that I share with any of you who even still read my blog, that last night we had to make life changing decision to let our sweet little Aspen girl go to heaven. 

It was very unexpected. Friday morning she woke up trembling and was very uncomfortable. You know when dogs try to burrow to get comfortable? She was doing that over and over and over again. I stayed home from work and a few minutes later she seemed to have calmed down and our day went on of nap time and laying outside in the grass. 

this is the last photo I took of her on Friday after her scary morning of breathing weird. She appears so happy and content doing what she loved, lying in the grass. 

Saturday morning hubby and I went to the gym aroun 9:30 and returning around 11:30 we found Aspen in the same state as friday morning shaking and trembling. Her breathing was awful. We rushed her to the emergency 24hr vet clinic which is thankfully right down the street from where we live. From Noon till 7 seven pm we were in shock of finding out from an Xray, that our sweet little baby girl had some calcium tumor that was either in her lung or right next to her lung and heart. Given the location of this mass, and Aspen's age, (she was only 4 days from turning 9 years old) we were left with 2 options. Operate on her, costing us up to 6k for this extremely risky chest surgery, which wouldn't guarantee she'd survive the surgery or if they would even be able to remove the mass since they weren't even really able to tell us if it was in her lung or to close to her heart. Or option B, humanely send her to doggy heaven. 

It was never about the money for a second. If the surgery would of costed us 10k we would of paid it, but it was about the fact that she was a little old for such a risky surgery and it was to big of a risk to take knowing she could die from the surgery since it was in such a bad place to operate on in her small little body. 

All I could see was my baby struggling to breathe. It was like she was constantly out of breath for the entire 6 hours she was there. I felt powerless. I couldn't make her better. There was only one thing to do. I'll never forget holding her in my arms telling her how much I loved her. Seeing my husband bawl as she licked his face one last time. And just like that, she was "sleeping" and then they made her little heart stop beating. 

I don't think my hubby and I slept a wink last night. I've cried non stop all morning even thoughout church. I'm sure people were wondering what was wrong with me. I've beat myself up about our decision. Did we do the right thing? Were we supposed to have taken the chance with the surgery? Am I a murderer for chosing to end her life? Why is God punishing me yet again? Wasn't taking my mom so early in my life enough? Now my sweet Aspen is joining her early. I thought for sure since she was a small dog I'd have her till she was 14-15 years old. She was almost 9. 

For those of you that have followed my blog from the beginning, know how much Aspen girl was a part of my life. She was #1. Everything in our lives revolved around her. I never went anywhere until I came home first from work to see my dog. I never locked her in a crate for 7 hours a day because I felt it was inhumane. She went everywhere we could take her. I am trying to hard to remember all the good times. I wish we would of had caught this a year earlier. We had no idea her 'limp' she developed in the last year was probably related to the mass right there under her sternum. 


RIP Aspen girl. I don't know if I'll ever get over you. You were the best dog I've ever had. Everyone loved you. You had the sweetest disposition. You loved all people, all kids, and all animals. It doesn't get better than that. You never barked, never chewed, did nothing but love daddy and mommy unconditionally. What more could I ever ask for. 

And the Oscar goes to...


If I could pick, Lady Gaga should of walked home with something. She with her rendition of Julie Andrew's Sound of Music. It's the first time in a long time where she was fully dressed and people were less distracted with how she looked and more focused on her beautiful voice. 

Well done gaga. Well done. 

My top picks for the night are as follows:

Gwen. She looked pretty. Perfect for the part if you would. 

Reese. She's worn a black and white dress before, I think she looks classy, although this isn't my favorite dress/look for her.

Jennifer Hudson sparkles in yellow. Maybe I'm just biased to yellow I don't know but she rocked it!

J Lo. Gorgeous. I think all the photographs of her in her dress don't even do her justice. When I saw her on TV she glowed. So pretty. 

David Oyelowo must of been the "thing" for colored suites last night! I thought all the men who wore them looked dapper!

Eddie R. 

Most unrecognizable Faith and Tim. Woah holy hair chop for Faith and Tim looks real skinny!

Rosemund Pike. She looked ravishing in red! 

Who was on your best and worst list? 

Fifty Shades say what?

I made it to the theater today to see the highly talked about Fifty Shades of Grey.


 If you recall, I read the books and blogged about it back in 2012 here I've also blogged about it here, here, here, & here

I've read opinions all over the place about this film how it being released at Valentines would send the wrong message and blah blah and how the whole submissive is borderline domestic violence and or abuse etc etc....

I walked into the theater expecting to feel really awkward watching this film especially during what I was expecting were some really intense sexual scenes. 

I am happy to report no awkwardness was felt, and those intense sexual scenes didn't really happen. I thought everything they showed was very tasteful and I've seen worse. They really didn't even show much. A few tie ups with a tie, or ropes and a blindfuold which truth be told couples in relationships today who aren't dominatrix do this type of stuff and aren't submissives/dominace people. How often have we seen movies where one person handcuffs the other to the bed? It's not something new that's for sure. 

Raunchy? Nope. The only thing that felt weird was hearing/seeing Jamie Dornan say "laters baby." I thought it was a tad cheesy but hey it's a big part of the book in the dialogue between Ana and Christian. 

Anyone else go out and see it? 

I thought it gave all us fans of the book a well deserved brought to life to the big screen. 

I was skeptical about Dakota Johnson and she ROCKED it as Ana. 

Sweet Treats

I decided to be a good neighbor and make these goodies for 3 of our friendly nice neighbors for Valentines day! 
What you'll need:

Silicone Heart mold. I found this particular one via amazon. I also own another one that I've shown or mentioned on blogger before but I use it for my crayon baking only! 

M & Ms

Valentine colored Sprinkles.

White Chocolate to melt.

Mason jars.

So while I was waiting for the chocolate to melt in the pan on the stove, I got my heart mold ready first. 

Once the chocolate was melted, you have to pour it quickly in the mold and then place in the fridge to cool down. 

The first hearts on the left were my first batch and didn't turn out so great. I learned that I didn't put nearly enough M&Ms and sprinkles to get them to lay on top of the chocolate enough. 

DUMP Way more than I am showing in this picture!

Since I only had one silicone mold, it was taking forever to make the treats. I had to wait 25 min for them to cool before I could make the next batch which meant I had to turn off the stove each time. Super annoying. Note to self always have 2 molds ready to go! 

So while I was waiting I busted out my glue gun and got to working on my favorite part, the decorating of the jars! 

Here's my second batch of treats this is how they were suppose to turn out the first time!

The larger mason jars I filled with Angel food cake, cut organic strawberries, and little dab of cool whip on the top! 


Grammys Recap!

Met up with a girlfriend to watch the grammys last night at her house and I was so happy that this was the first show in such a long time that really felt like it was all about the music! Packed with great performances!

Gotta start with my girl Madonna.
Love her. I know she's a pusher she always has been. Her performance was nothing shy of her style that's for sure!
Where do you think Lady Gaga gets her ideas from?

Here's Madonna's performance from last night. It's one of the few songs on her new album that doesn't have inapropriate words

The Paul Rihanna Kanye performance.

This was such a weird match up. Rihanna has such a great voice, but I felt like I couldn't hear Paul at all!!!

And Sia. I have been such a fan of hers since she was apart of the group called Zero 7. (their hit song was called Destiny you can hear it in the film Blue Crush)

Did you know Sia wrote Adam Levine and Gwen Stefani's new song/duet My heart is open? Tis true!  I was so impressed. Their voices blend so well together! 

And can we talk about how Pharrell's shoes pretty much trump his goofy hat from last year?! lol Bling Bling! 

I thought this little lady looked so glam! Stunning color! I was sad she didn't win anything this year.


Some things I didn't like....The Artist formerly known as Prince and his really awkwardness and rudeness towards Beck when he won. I didn't like his little thrown in black lives still matter comment. 


I didn't think all these artists really needed to throw in the I can't breathe thing. What's done is done.

What were your favorite likes or dislikes from the show last night!? 

Hooked on Sons

of Anarchy that is! 

7 seasons I've got a lot to get through! 

I've seen a few great shows, over the years and this one is falling right in line with all of my top favorite TV shows of all time! (And I'm not even completely done with season1 yet!)

I'd have to say some of the best shows of all time that I have seen are the following:

Prison Break. 4 seasons. So sad when it ended so quick! 


8 seasons. Cop slash Blood Spatter Analyst. Doesn't get much better than that as a story line!

Breaking Bad. 5 Seasons. 
Chemisty Teacher slash drug maker. 

The Wonder Years
6 seasons. This is my all time top favorite show that I have ever watched. Not sure anything else can ever come close! 

Brothers and Sisters 
5 seasons. 

I'm a sucker for anything with Rob Lowe. It's mainly the reason I watched this one! 

I'm only listing shows that have ended. There are about 4 that I am currently watching now but haven't gotten the axe just yet! 

What are your favorite TV series of all time? 

Recap of episode 2 of the Bachelor


"She thinks my tractor's sexy, it really turns her on."
Anyone else think of this song by Kenny Chesney when the first group date of girls did this as their date? haha! 

I must say it was nice to see that all of these girls looks NORMAL (aka have meat on their bones, you can see imperfections and yet they are all still so beautiful!) Yay for NO photoshop! 

I am CONVINCED that this girl is stuck around for a while on the show just to piss off viewers. Anyone in their right mind knows there is no way a Kardashian wannabe would enjoy life on a farm away from a city or mall **cough cough** Ashley the virgin I. Can you just see her trying to help him on the farm as her huge falsies fall off her eyelids? Gross! 

This poor girl. How did not come up in her date how young she is? Chris must really view her as older, but by how she babbled on, I don't think Chris was all that into her, even though he gave her a rose, I feel like he did it for pity! 

And the other Ashley....holy cray cray! 

I'm sorry, but I think the show probably makes the person as the bachelor keep them on just for viewing sake, not because they really stand a chance. I truly felt like she was on drugs watching her on their night time date. She had no idea what was going on. So freaking weird! 

I couldn't find a picture of it online, but I think Whitney is super cute after what she did with Chris right before the rose ceremony--they shared his favorite whiskey! How in the world she managed to find it while staying in the house all day is beyond me but it works! 

Golden Globes

Since we cancelled our cable last week, I was unable to watch the Golden Globes! :( How sad is that? So from all the video feed I could get from my laptop and such, here's who I saw online as my best and worst dressed for the evening! 

In no particular order... Best dressed list

Reese Witherspoon. Girl is just fabulous. Girl crush forever. 

Emma Stone. She looks adorable and I love how different she looks compared to most of the other ladies in their long gowns. 

Viola Davis. Wow! Stunning! 

Lordes. Again, points for looking very dapper.

Jenna Dewan-Tatum. I am a sucker for canary yellow. 

Naomi Watts. She reminds me of the look Michelle Williams wore all those years ago..the bright yellow and red lips! 

This might of been the best I've ever seen Katie Holmes look! Stunning! 

Worst Dressed:

I love Claire Danes. She's usually always so well polished and dressed to perfection but tonight, she's on the D list for me. Terrible choice in apparel. 

Kiera. Too much blush, her eyebrows look pinched and dress looks frumpy. Poor thing. 

Gwen Paltrow. 
I think she totally had the potential to be on the best dressed list but her hair and makeup just looks like she rolled out of bed! Yuck!

And can someone please tell me the deal on this chick? A BEARD? Is this woman really a man?! I don't get it! 


Who were your picks for the night? 

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