First IUI

I had my first IUI 2 weeks ago. Today the nurse called after yesterday's blood test and said that I wasn't pregnant. :( 



Heartbroken, frustrated, defeated are all pretty much words that describe how I feel. This has been going on for TWO YEARS. 

How many IUIs am I suppose to go through? How many more failures? What's wrong with me? Because according to the doctor, both my hubby and I are fine, normal, healthy. 

It's hard not to want to throw in the towel on all of this. It's hard to be on social media when everyone is showing off their bumps and babies their pride and joys. 

Back to the drawing board. Maybe it wasn't meant in God's plan for me to be a parent. Maybe I'm to selfish or to self absorbed to be a parent. Maybe being a teacher to other's children is all I am cut out for. Maybe fur babies are all I can handle.  For those of you saying or wondering if IVF is next for us, it isn't. We just don't have that kind of money saved. 

That's it for now. 


Something to remember..


Starting Over

I am so thankful that after moving to Ohio for 3 weeks then back to AZ, I was able to find an art opening in a new school district. It's been a learning experience these past 2 weeks since school has resumed and even though it is my 10th year teaching, I felt much like a newbie teacher since I was the one new to a newer school new staff.


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Here's the "before" shots
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Storage room!

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Here's one finished section of the back of the room.

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Stay tuned! 





Fertility Update

I wish I had amazing news to share, but I don't. Infact it's just another day for me and the hubs when it comes to the baby making business. We Got the green light from having that procedure I had done back in May to start trying again. Given our turbulent moving situation (AZ to OH back to AZ) needless to say I've been pretty stressed and neither of us really were "Into" really trying hard core so to speak. 




I noticed last month I had to short of a luteal phase which really bummed me out since you can't get pregnant with to short of a window. This month I went 12 days after ovulation before my period decided to show up. (It was 5 days early) 

Disappointed we both are, and are eager to get back to our doctor to see what's next for us, since clearly the on our own thing hasn't worked for us. (Over a year and a half of trying) 

Of course there are all the emotions of feeling mad/sad/envious as I scroll through my instagram feed and see all my "friends" real life and just insta friends are all knocked up, expecting etc etc...Of course I am genuinely happy for them, because that's the kind of person I am. But in the same fleeting feeling, I can't help but ask God, why not me? Am I to selfish of a person to be a mom? Is there a reason why God doesn't want me to have a baby? Would I not be a good mother? As I tell my students all the time, life's hard, wear a helmet. But sometimes no matter how padded that helmet is, you still feel a little bit of the pain. I had no idea that trying to have a baby would be so hard. I spend the last 10 years trying to NOT ruin my life, and can't help but wonder if all those years on the pill have ruined me for the future? 

Such a tough spot to be in. Well, that's my baby making update. What's new with everyone else? 


Oh Captain my captain our fearful trip is done...



We don’t read and write poetry because it’s cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion. Medicine, law, business, engineering, these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life. But poetry, beauty, romance, love, these are what we stay alive for. To quote from Whitman, ‘O me! O life!… of the questions of these recurring; of the endless trains of the faithless… of cities filled with the foolish; what good amid these, O me, O life?’ Answer. That you are here - that life exists, and identity; that the powerful play goes on and you may contribute a verse. That the powerful play goes on and you may contribute a verse. What will your verse be?
—  Robin Williams as John Keating inDead Poets Society




I have no words...I don't know why I took it so personal to hearing about Robin Williams dying. It just hit me like a ton of bricks. He made me laugh. True humor in movies not stupid funny as you often see that is forced in certain actors but genuine funny comedic roles/personality he was. I've never felt sad when a celebrity dies. Until I heard about Robin.  

It just goes to show that no matter what kind of life you lead - depression is a very serious matter & can effect anyone RIP Robin. My DVDS of Good Morning Vietnam and Hook and Awakenings will be getting lots of use this weekend..










Fifty Shades Of Grey - Trailer





It's finally here! The teaser trailer of the much anticipated triology Fifty Shades of Grey!

I am still not completely sold on Dakota Johnson playing Ana Steele but I guess I will have to go and see the movie my self to see if she pulled it off or not! :) Who's going to see it this February?!

And I read that Beyonce re-recorded her song in this version just for the movie specifically! She makes it fit with the movie so perfectly!




The time you move across country for a job, only to turn around and go right back to where you started...

Without getting into to much detail, I am just writing a small update-- to get my feelings about the lastest events going on my life.

My husband recently took a job that moved us across country, only to arrive and have it "not work out" to simply put it. (I can't give much detail on it, as we are probably going to take legal action regarding the events) 

Our home in Phoenix never sold, so we have somewhere to go home to, and thankfully my husband's previous job are rehiring him back. 

As for me and my job, I am not so lucky, and was recently told by my former Principal that he filled my spot only a mere few days ago. I was devastated to say the least. 

Right now most slots for teaching have been filled, and I am probably going to be job less when school resumes. Not a good feeling. I can sub, at least that will bring in something, but the downside of course is that most teachers don't miss any school till Nov/Dec! 

Prayers and positive thoughts are much needed and welcomed. 


If any of you are in Arizona, and know someone who knows someone who is a Principal that needs an art teacher, don't hesitate to give them my name! Obviously my blog showcases much of my student's work and achievements! 

I know there is the old saying "Everything happens for a reason" and it will all work out, but I am terrified at the moment, simply because I have always had a teaching job for 9 years! 



So long Arizona, Hello Ohio!



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After 9 glorious years in AZ, my husband has taken a job relocating us back to his home state of Ohio. Oh Ohio. We have such a love hate relationship. Sans Snow. Sans humidity. Sans many overcast days. I thought long ago to myself "Hey I did my time 4/1/2 years of college here was plenty!" Eh wrong! Somewhere into the journey of growing up, having my own job, getting married, being a fur momma (and all other adult responsibilities that come along with it) I got the gentle reminder about family and how important it is to have family around you.

By relocating back to Ohio, my hubby is able to be reunited with his family, and what is now my family! I've always been a loner with my folks not living in AZ and my brother also living in a different state, I've never given to much thought as to not having family around me. I thought it was normal. As we age, and in hopes of starting our own family, we knew that having family around needed to happen. The good thing if my hubby and his career in the medical field is his ability to bounce around pretty easily. Me in the teaching career however is not so easy!!

I've already taken all the necessary steps into getting my teaching certificate to transfer over, but finding the job bit esp as a special area teacher is no easy task! 

I don't know how many readers I have in the Cleveland area, but if any of you know of an opening for an art teacher, please let me know! It's very difficult to get a leg up when I am an outsider coming in to this city. I think all my posts and pictures on my blog speak for my integrity and passion I have for my job! :) 




Just call her the ninja hula hooper





If you haven't seen this already, you MUST check out this Ohio girl named Rachel Lust she has MAD SKILLS at hula hooping! Hula hooping is a great core work out for your abs along with a great cardio work out! The music she has in this video is SICK! Very catchy and good to work out to! 

Last Post

If you follow me on instagram, I made the annoucement that I have officially decided to shut down the blog. ( At least for now!) 
 Well, upon making that decision, I had people emailing me left and right saying they couldn't find "pins" from pinterest from my blog etc etc since I had "deleted" the blog! I know how frustrating that can be esp if you are a teacher trying to find directions or info on a potential art lesson and then wham! The picture is a dead end. So rather than cause frustrated teachers who apparently still view my blog every now and again for art ideas, I "undeleted" it, but am letting most of you fellow bloggers know I won't really be updating it anymore. 

What was once fun 4 years ago (blogging) isn't really all that fun anymore and has really died down compared to other social media outlets that are all the rage these days. 

So, for all you fellow art teachers that do follow me, I will still continue to upload all my art photos to my flickr account so you can find them there. As for all you bloggers/twitter peeps, you can still find me on instagram. 

The beauty of instagram is that it's short and sweet and to the point. Picture plus caption. That's really a shortened form of blogging these days anyway. 



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